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Sep 30, 2010


I am le tired. One more day to go before the weekend and a much deserved break.

Underoath added guitars to their track today (underoath777.com) - I am very excited to hear their new CD when it is released. I hope it's hard and awesome with their new drummer (ex Norma Jean drummer for those of you who weren't aware).

Canucks play Avalanche tomorrow night. Here's hoping that they do better. Hahaha.

It's hard to believe that tomorrow is October. This year has just gone by so fast. 9 months until Russell comes to Edmonton. I am so so so very excited.

Sep 29, 2010

I know I promised...

Those pictures - but I cannot find the usb cord for my phone... err...

Sorry guys. :(

When I find it I will upload it. I think I may have left the cord at work.

Sep 28, 2010

So I know you guys want the office pictures...

...and the hockey sheets tonight but I am so exhausted it's just going to have to wait until tomorrow.

So sorry guys. I know many of you have been anxiously waiting. Feel free to pester me relentlessly tomorrow evening.

Sep 27, 2010

So excited for Disambiguation.

Oh Underoath - how you tease me with the drums only release, but I think that doing it this way is genius.

Click Here to join me in my excitement!

Sep 26, 2010

Who is in for Empire Avenue Fantasy Hockey?

Message me on Empire Ave and let me know if you are interested! (e)LDYHXC

So far we have 10 people - which is kinda pathetic. I want 20 MORE!

So today was good. I didn't get any of what I wanted to get done done but whatever.

I just found out my best friend and her fiance are coming to visit in November. This makes me UBER excited!! I am hoping my little brother can make it here for my birthday. I will be one sad panda if he can't. I really want to see Norma Jean and La Dispute with him as well. SO BAD.

So even though twitter was abuzz with hockey team rivalries (and apparently my facebook wall too... err...) at least everybody agreed that MAPLE LEAFS SUCK. Hatred of the Maple Laughs (as my dear hubby -lawl- Colin puts it) is the glue that binds us together as Canadians as far as I am concerned. Speaking of Colin... Buy his shares on empire avenue cause he's cyoot - and tell him to make me chicken pot pies please. Then join the hockey pool. (e)COLEAG

Also, buy Pat as well. I'd totally throw down in a pit with him. (e)PEEN.

Sep 25, 2010

Empire Avenue Fantasy Hockey

Anybody in?

Message me (e)LDYHXC and let me know if you are interested. We want as many people as possible!

Awesome hockey game tonight.

They sure as hell better sign Morrison or else I will be so heartbroken! He was creating amazing opportunities. He IS a Canuck and he BELONGS on this team!

Luongo looked excellent tonight as well, and I think Henrik and Daniel are both going to be among the top goal scorers in the league. This year HAS to be our year for the cup.

Alberts played a solid game tonight, although I cannot shake memories of last year so I have yet to reserve judgment without more proof that he's changed his bad penalty game killing ways.

Tonight I am feeling more confident about Burrows being out for the next month and Salo being out for most of this season with his torn Achilles (Salo, I know and feel your pain there as Achilles are a BITCH and it's about time that you STOP injuring yourself - you're getting infamous for it!). I miss both of them on the ice though. I did enjoy Burrows commentary on Canucks TV for the past couple of games however. :P

Happy 30th Birthday to Daniel and Henrick Sedin tomorrow!


Why Lucy should sleep with one eye open from now on.


My cat just destroyed my brand new couch beyond repair. The one my Mom bought me last month.

My parents are going to shit a brick.

I can't have anything go right ever. I can't have anything nice or have anything work out for me.

This fucking sucks.

Sep 23, 2010


So today was full of all kinds of suck. I'm coming down with what appears to be the office plague and I am stressed to the max at work. I don't understand how some people can be so lazy and ditch their responsibilities on other people.

I'm feeling worn down and eventually I think I'll just end up sitting in my cubicle in tears if this keeps up.

Every branch has 3-4 people doing what I do by myself, and yet I'm dumped with a group additional to my own and they have 3 people who could easily handle the job.

The frustration I feel with this whole scenario is beyond words.

Then I come home and I'm struggling to make ends meet. It's really a slap in the face. I will rise to the occasion like I have for the past year - but at the very least you could pay me what I'm worth.

I don't think people realize exactly how much I've taken on, and how the stress has been literally eating away at me not only when I'm at work, but now in my home life too.

I may be smart and competent but I am not a machine.

I'm taken for granted because I'm nice and I don't feel secure enough to put down my foot and say no.

I don't think any of the people I work with even realize what I have been going through. They've all lived privileged lives. They don't realize that if I had the opportunities that they had all been given I would probably be a trauma surgeon or a volcanologist or a lawyer or a psychologist.

These people don't know that my aptitude test's first result was neurosurgeon, then nuclear physicist then a fucking rocket scientist.

These people don't know that any other person in my shoes right now would fail miserably. It's true. The only other person who is even remotely close to my working situation is on stress leave and has been for months.

I like my job and the people I directly work with. I just hate that when I come home I can't even have a toilet that fucking works. I hate that I only own one pair of pants that I have to wash over and over again every day. I hate that my shoes have holes in them and when it rains my feet are wet and because I don't have proper foot support I am in pain all day. I hate that I have a tooth that hurts and even with my benefits I can't afford to fix it. I hate that I have a car I can't even drive, that I have to carry my groceries and pet food on a bus and then walk a kilometer. I hate that every simple thing I need to do takes the entire day and takes significant effort.

Sorry, but I'm at a point where I need to let it out or it's going to consume me. I don't even have anybody here to talk to.

I'm alone, I'm stressed, I'm struggling. It's all so unnecessary.

I wish somebody, anybody would take their head out of their ass for a minute and try to walk in my shoes.

Sep 22, 2010

Oh Rudiger...

Click here to read.

My poor squirrel.

In other news. Comeback kids are here to stay! Had it not been for bad calls in the last half of the third I think the outcome of the game would have been much different.

Sep 21, 2010

Also also.

Does anybody know where I can find the clip with Swedish Chef walking going BORK BORK BORK - PORK PORK PORK PORK - SPORK SPORK SPORK - etc...?

I tried finding it on youtube and had no luck.



/Swedish Chef impressions I do every time Rene Bourque has the puck.

So that was a disappointment.

Canucks lost both games - although it is definitely not a sign of things to come.

It was nice to see Morrison back in a Canucks jersey! He's hungry for the cup and I think he came back cause he knows this is the team that will give him the best shot to do it.

Predictions for this year:
Canucks top Northwest Division and make (kill) the playoffs.
Colorado will probably make playoffs, Calgary is iffy if they will.
Edmonton will be fighting with Toronto for last place again. Fag-neuf is going to blow a gasket through his shit hole at some point live on television.

Sep 17, 2010

4 Days Until Hockey!

So today was crazy busy at work and now that I'm home for the weekend I'm finding it hard to unwind.

Today I had a surprise that somebody is going to be visiting me from BC for my birthday - which is awesome.

I am planning on upgrading on Empire Avenue tomorrow for those of you who are wondering.

In other news, I highly encourage you guys to watch some of those New York tornado videos - people's reactions and stupidity are actually rather hilarious! All potential Darwin Award winners if you ask me.

Sep 16, 2010

5 Days!!

So today I slammed my finger in the drawer at work. It wasn't that bad but there was a sharp edge and I cut myself up pretty decently. My poor nail bed was bleeding where it meets the cuticle. I was proud of myself for not yelling profanities when I did it. LOL - unlike that time the fire alarm went off last year and the office heard me yell FUCK really loudly because I was standing underneath it - they heard me before they realized the damn alarm went off. Hahaha. I think I need to work on that.

Anyways.. so now to work on my interview thingy - stupid session timeouts. Still fuming about that one.

Sep 15, 2010

Bed Time

Six days until hockey starts! Very excited for this season, but sad that Mitchell has been traded to LA.

I had very strange dreams last night. Incredibly vivid and really unexpected. Every now and then I have a dream like that and it makes me aware of something that I wasn't aware of before. This was one of those dreams. Sometimes it's a good thing and sometimes it isn't. I still haven't determined if it is or not yet.

Anyways, it's been a long day so I'm off to get some sleep.

Happy birthday to my niece Tiffany. I love you.

Sep 14, 2010

It seems so unfair.

To look outside and see frost today.

All I want is for something that resembles autumn! Not some crappy summer that goes straight into winter. I want warm air please!

I know I carry on about it - but when winter comes I find myself clawing for warmth and sunshine. I don't like hot weather tbh - but I would have been good with warm!

Stupid. Rainy. Edmonton.

I thought when I left Vancouver I wouldn't have Vancouver weather anymore. Hahaha. Jokes on me!

Sep 13, 2010

It has been a very long day.

...and I am getting very sleepy!

Work has been crazy busy lately. I also have been feeling like I'm coming down with something. I am hoping that we at the very least get one last blast of something that resembles warm air before winter comes - this was the most pathetic summer I have ever had in my existence!


If I challenge mother nature in my blog do you think she'll throw down back at me?

Just wondering.

Anyways - Tomorrow is Tuesday, which means I'm sad because it's not Friday. This weekend seemed to slip past me. I was so very sleepy for some reason so I kind of feel like my weekend was robbed from me a bit.

I posted a link to a CTV movie in a blog entry below this one. I strongly encourage you guys to watch it. It is absolutely heart shattering. I'm sorry, but if your cultural beliefs make you justify killing your own children - then your culture and beliefs are abhorrently EVIL. I do not believe that this is actually a religious issue, as apparently this happens in the Sikh community and other religious communities as well. It just disgusts and saddens me that such a barbaric thing could come from a group of human beings. To me it isn't even a human quality at all. To treat a person as your possession is completely wrong.

I hope they are all castrated at the hands of a woman.

I pray your daughters are liberated and learn how to fight back.

These girls are martyrs as far as I am concerned. God bless them all and may their souls rest in peace.

When I heard about the law they wanted to pass in Afghanistan that would ultimately legalize the rape of women and children - and allow their deaths by starvation if they did not have sexual intercourse with their neanderthal husbands - it made me remember the very reason why our troops are in Afghanistan and made me realize that this is something we as Canadians absolutely have to fight for.

I felt so passionately about it I actually wrote a song appropriately titled "Ladies Get Your Guns".

Maybe one day I'll share the lyrics, alas this blog post is too long now and I am ranting.

Goodnight all. I know I'm harsh and opinionated and not always correct, but dammit that is my fucking right and I am thankful that I get to use it each and every day.

Sep 12, 2010

How can you watch this...

...and not cry?

Click Here

It's fucking barbaric. Every feeling I have as a human and as a woman just makes me hurt so badly that this happens not only in our country but abroad.

Sep 11, 2010

Okay - so let's see if this Tumblr business will work now.

I wanted this blog to update to it as well so that all my posts can be captured in one place since I will probably have more tumblr followers on there than I will on here.

*crosses fingers*

Sep 10, 2010

I had an awesome day on Empire Avenue today.

Thank you to everybody who made that possible.

Loving the twitter feeds from the site.

Has anybody been having issues with Tumblr updating on Empire Ave? I created and added it yesterday and not one update has been posted?

Also, anybody know how to acquire the rss feed for Empire Avenue itself? I'd like to have a page on tumblr dedicated to it (if that is even possible).

Alas, I am very green when it comes to tumblr and I find their layout, etc... extremely confusing and not very user friendly - which is the opposite of what I hear most people say.

Help? Pwease?? *pout*

Sep 9, 2010

So why do you read my blog?

Do you like to hear my thoughts on Empire Avenue, or do you enjoy hearing about my personal life more?

I'm very curious about why people read my blog - mainly cause if I were me I probably wouldn't! :P

Sep 7, 2010


So - the big adjustment to stock prices is going to happen! I want everybody to COMMENT here and tell me what they think my price will be after the adjustment.

Closest person to the actual number will be maxed out (350 shares) by me unless of course I already own full shares in you in which case... nudes? LOL*

...and go!

*legal small print: no, you will not get to see my cooter*

Sep 5, 2010

Sunday Night

I can't believe there is only one day left in this long weekend. I feel as though today should be Saturday because I was so wiped yesterday I slept pretty much the entire day - which is totally not like me at all.

Lately I've been feeling a lot of stress and anxiety. I need to figure out how to control it before it gets the best of me.

Sep 2, 2010


So Mom and Russell went home on Tuesday.

This week has been quite busy work-wise so I've been trying to go to bed super early every night to mitigate my stress levels.

I am soooooooo looking forward to next summer when Russell moves in with me. We are going to have such a blast together - I just know it.

Anyways, it's a long weekend coming up so I am looking forward to some relaxation.