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Jul 26, 2010

Just finished burying Delilah.

It's the worst thing in the world.

I'm so sad. She was too young and I was supposed to have several more years with her.

Every time I walk into the house or go into the kitchen I still expect to see her greeting me. I don't think I'm ever going to get used to her not being there. Worst part is not knowing why.

Rest in Peace Delilah.

Jul 25, 2010

Still really really sad today.

My eyes are all swollen from crying yesterday. I couldn't bring myself to do much of anything today either. I think I'm allowed one day of doing nothing given the circumstances.

Lucy sat there in the same place looking at her cage again today. This time only for 5 hours. She got really upset when I carried her to my room and closed the door. I couldn't take it anymore, it was too saddening for me to allow her to do it any longer. She keeps looking around the house now in Delilah's favorite spots trying to find her. It tugs on my heart strings.

I know my other animals are feeling it. It makes this whole thing twice as heartbreaking.

Jul 24, 2010

I don't think my eyes have been dry all day.

I am so very sad right to my core right now.

Lucy sat there looking at Delilah's empty cage for over 7 hours. She didn't move an inch.

My house feels empty without her and I wasn't prepared for her to go this young.

It's so unfair. I'm so sorry my sweet little bunny.

It's going to take me a long time to get over this.

I am so heartbroken. Rest in Peace Delilah.

My beautiful cheeky rabbit just died. I thought she was sleeping and I went to wake her and she didn't wake up. She was fine this morning. My home is never going to feel the same without her. I am so sad right now. I don't think anybody could possibly know how much I loved her.

I am so sorry Delilah. I am going to miss you so much.



Jul 23, 2010

Yesterday Morning....

I went to Timmy's for some coffee and I witnessed something that really infuriated and upset me. I'm still thinking about it today and now I'm regretting not saying anything.

So I'm leaving and about to go to the door when I see an older fat fuck ask the Filipino lady who works there if she can wipe off his CLEAN table. She says sure and wipes it off, and he says thanks. She did this in a friendly way with a smile on her face and then went back to what she was doing as she should. As soon as she turns her back he utters a word at her rather loudly: CUNT.

Normally under the circumstances I would have instantaneously started yelling at this stupid piece of shit for a man, but I am sick right now and feeling rather horrible and I couldn't bring myself to do anything else but stop in my place and stare at him with a fucking look of death and utter disgust. I proceeded to walk out the door and around the front with my full on hate daggers until he was out of site. I think he got the message. I don't think he cared.

What on earth did this woman do to deserve to be called that undeservingly? Obviously this guy was some sort of a racist or a bigot.

As far as I am concerned this useless waste of the air we all breathe is a disgrace to this country, and he should be glad I was feeling so weak at the time because I probably would have taken the tray his breakfast was on and beat him to a bloody pulp with it otherwise.

Sad thing is, I was so upset at his blatant display of being a waste of an egg and a sperm I don't think I'm joking when I say I would have done it. I don't think I've felt instantaneous rage like that in a very very very long time.

He better hope to never cross my path. He won't leave with testicles.

Jul 21, 2010

The more I learn...

...the more I thank God I avoided further catastrophe.

I found out who the girl in my dream is. A friend read my blog and knew instantly.

Oh sweetie. I feel so horrible for you becoming the next victim and you will never even know. You're so pretty! You look like a girl I'd like too. Let's hope you're smart and catch on real quick. Poor girl will probably never see it coming.

I will never be that weak again. Valuable lesson learned.

PS: Douchefuck if you're going to "cheat" on somebody - don't do it with a bloody LOUDMOUTH. If it got back to me of all people - unsolicited - think of how fast she is going to find out!

But don't worry. Secret's safe with me. ;)

I'll behave. For now.

Wow! Thanks! Didn't your mommy ever teach you?

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